Weekends definitely top the list on what makes me happy at the moment. I am supposed to start doing my homework and other school stuff already but I have chosen not to do any of them and just spend my weekend to ease off instead and do senseless things to make my day unproductive. Just like this piece of shit which shows the poses you’d prolly see on Facebook and other social networking sites:

Procrastination indeed.Then I’ll just worry about how I’ve never done anything for school later tonight. I just love that kind of feeling.

School started two weeks ago and I have finally come to realize that no one was kidding when they said high school senior is very very stressful. Especially when you’re in the first science class. No one will help you except yourself. I’m pretty much okay with that. The only thing I’m having a hard time is waking up early in the morning. I’m always either on time or late when I come to school.

I’m also worrying about me being the FREAKING president of a club in school. I have no idea what to do. I got about 50 members and I don’t know how I could possibly handle them all. I have lots of plans already though (but I still don’t feel like listing them all) and I wish I could do them all. I mean, doing stuff for myself is already very hard. How much more for a club with half a hundred members in it? I AM GOING TO FLUNK.

I AM GOING TO FLUNK.
I AM GOING TO FLUNK.
I AM GOING TO FLUNK.

I know jump shots are lame. But this…it’s just so cute :))

COLLEGE.

Looking at the word itself makes me feel uncomfortable. COLLEGE. whadduhell. It’s stressing me out. So many things to think about…decisions I’ve got to make. Entrance exams, courses, school. UPCAT!!! God if only these were chocolates…

I took a review in LSC last May for about a month. I didn’t regret it. The review was very very helpful. I’ve learned a lot of things there. Now I realized my school doesn’t discuss everything. Because srsly, I thought my school was good enough. I thought I knew I enough. But then again, I’m a lil less worried about taking college entrance exams now, thanks to LSC. (Geez, I sound like I’m endorsing them lol) But I still gotta study more.

UPCAT is tough. Everyone knows that. Even the smartest in class wouldn’t probably consider it as easy as pie. I really want to study in UP. It’s my dream school. I mean, sino namang may ayaw? It’s where my family wants me to be part of. My major problem at this moment is my application form. I haven’t filled it up yet. I have no idea what courses I’m going to put there. BS Psychology (as my pre-med course) perhaps is my first choice. But my dad disagrees. Public Health, BS Biology are my possible intended course but wtf I still have no idea what Public Health is, and I have no interest in Biology at all. I dislike Biology.

Second choice of school is UST. I’d be taking up MedTech as my pre-med course if ever I’m gonna be in that school. But I don’t know, there’s this part of me that doesn’t want that school. Maybe, it’s because I’m tired of wearing school uniforms. Or maybe…because…he’s there. The guy whom I dumped, and until now I neither want to speak nor see him. I feel like until now we’re in no good terms. Okay. He still messages me but I’ve never felt like replying. BECAUSE HE’S MADLY ANNOYING. And I just can’t stand that. So, UST no?

I’m also thinking of the two schools that are also part of the Big Four. BUT I DON’T FRIGGIN KNOW YET. Deciding on things like these is bloody. Tbh, it scares me to make the wrong verdict because I know I won’t be contented in the end. So yeah, wish me luck.

I’d just like to post a picture here. It’s me and my cousin <3 What you can see in the picture is pretty much what we’re doing most of the time when we’re hanging out wherever we want to, doing random things every moment. We’re really close. I know her secrets, she knows mine. And I love her for that.

So yeah, just sharing. Might start posting more pictures on my next posts. This summer’s pretty great since we’ve gone to a lot of places, and every moment’s just so worthy. My sisters and I went to Cavite and Tagaytay for just a lil while. And lately, my family went to Ilocos. It’s my first time there. God, Pagudpud is wonderful. It’s so peaceful there.

Like what I’ve said, I might be posting pictures from our trip…if laziness won’t attack me. :P

Fyi, blogging has been part of my life. I was 11 when I started this kind of thing and I’ve never felt so tired about it. It’s just that too much work and other things made me neglect blogging. But now I can say I’m back and I’m really wishing for less work in life to be able to never stop doing this kind of thing. Because. I love it.

I undoubtedly miss talking about random stuff and ranting about the least things thru blogging. Most of the time, I would actually consider it as my coping mechanism, besides eating five gallons of frozen yogurt in one sitting. And yes, I’m exaggerating the latter part.

I’m just happy now I’m finally doing this again. Simple as that. My life feels very much peaceful when I do this. Really. It makes me feel like I’ve got a friend whom I can always talk to about every single thing that would bore someone to death. Loner ba? =)) But no, I’m hella serious. And I don’t care about whether or not blogging starts to get overrated, because I’m going to continue it until the rest of my freaking life, hopefully. Hahaha.

But dear blog, my cousin is very much in need of me right now. I can feel it. Hahaha. She’s got like a major problem right now and I gotta help her. Ok. So.. chyeahhh.

Till my next post. *hugs*

But I’m not celebrating Christmas with my parents.

Yeah, it’s probably the bluest Christmas I’ve ever had. It’s my first time to celebrate Christmas without them. I’m not alone though, since my sister’s family’s coming home later to celebrate Christmas with me and our maid. But whatever. Deep inside, I feel so alone. I don’t even have a phone or money right now. That’s why I can’t greet my classmates tonight.

Anyway, I’ve been planning this Christmas wish list thing since the first day of this month but I was so lazy that I almost forgot about it. So would it be okay if I’ll do the list this Christmas Eve? Isn’t that too late already? Anyway…

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST

1. A domain - yeah. I’ve been wishing for it ever since
2. New stuff for my closet
3. A domain - where I can show off my crappy graphics
4. Books by Chuck Palahniuk
5. More books - because I love their smell
6. More DVDs
7. new pairs of socks - rawr!
8. A domain - because I need to earn $$$
9. Pens - I like to write
10. Holga Starter Kit
11. Voice lessons
12. Anything from Fred Flare
13. And a new domain - because I totally want one right now >.<

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Yes, sweet and thoughtful Ria just granted one of my wishes. I’m pretty much excited about it that I’m starting to think of things I’m doing with it and whatnots. I’m more than happy tonight. Thanks, Ria. You made my Christmas great because of it. And no, it’s not because of the domain, but it’s you. You made me believe that Santa Claus is for real. LOL <3

I suppose you know I’m also a big fan of that book and if only I have the money, I would buy it right away and send it to you. It sucks because what I can only give to you right now is “thanks.” But that is so not enough. You deserve more. And I promise that next time, you’ll receive more than what you’ve given me.

…

Crap. Oh, crap. My message’s so nerdy. But, everything’s for real. HAHA.  Sorry if it’s bad.

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The clock says it’s 10:52 pm already and I forgot to attend mass, I feel sleepy, I’m still wearing my PJs because I have nothing nice to wear tonight, and home’s so quiet it feels like it’s November 1.

I can’t feel it.

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I didn’t realize that our six-day vacation is again about to end. Like it actually felt like two days only. Like those rest days of mine weren’t really that unwinding.

School hasn’t resumed yet but I already feel like I need to take a break again. LOL.

Anyway, we had our Sports Fest last week for three days. The last two days weren’t really that fun. As expected, we lost in softball but good thing our boys got the first place in baseball :-) The overall champion hasn’t been declared yet but we believe that it’s going to be the seniors again.

I’d like to share some pictures during the Cheer and Dance Competition. It was held on the first day and it was raining that morning that’s why we performed in the gymnasium. It was really exhausting performing inside…

The Deux Logos
So if you want to see more of our funny-looking pictures, then I suggest you to visit my Friendster :-) Only if we’re friends.

And I would like to greet you all a Late Happy Halloween! So how was it? We celebrated it in my grandma’s house since it was also her birthday that same day.

PS.
I just finished reading New Moon. I love Jacob Black more than the bloodsucker. But I didn’t like the last part where he somewhat became a traitor.

Will be flipping through Eclipse tonight.

One guy is seriously on my mind every time I sleep and I just can’t stop myself from it. He’s just undeniably lovely and I confess that I start to get envious every time I see other girls talking to him. It’s really crazy when I like someone.

We’re seatmates this quarter and I’m happy to know how humane he is, yet I feel embarrassed every time I see myself beside him. Every individual in class likes him and I’m just like a neglected student. That’s how I feel.

I still feel like shrinking whenever he talks to me. I can’t look straight at him and I could feel how my voice sounds different whenever I speak to him.

Once he touched my hand accidentally and it was just the moment I want to get longer. He once called my name, helped me with my Algebra homework, lent me his pen (but have not returned it yet), told me he’ll read the book and invited me to watch Twilight with him. One time, I was watching him play drums and he smiled at me when he saw me. I felt myself blushing and tried to smile back.

Is it somewhat love or is he just a sweet guy?

I want to field the question. An oracle or whatever you call it told me that it’s getting nearer. But I’ve been hearing things from some strangers about girls he likes. :( I want to ask him about it but I know I cant.

REALLY. I hate it when things like this happen.

PS.
Intramurals on Monday-Wednesday. We’re like still not ready for the Cheer & Dance Competition. And I’ll be playing softball. I don’t know when but one thing’s for sure: I FREAKING DON’T KNOW AAANYYYTHIIING ABOUT SOFTBALL!!! (hello, fourth place.)

1) Type in “[your name] needs” in Google search:

• Mika needs to calm down. She has been absolutely manic since last Tuesday’s primaries.
• {Whoa, I know.}

2) Type in “[your name] looks like” in Google search:

• Mika looks so cute and looks like (s)he has a very nice tan!
• {My classmates often call me “cute,” by the way! LOL.}

3) Type in “[your name] likes” in Google search:

• Mika also likes to give hugs.
• {Yes, I do. But only to people I like. :-P}

4 ) Type in “[your name] says” in Google search:

• Mika says that it wasn’t until high school that she became really interested in writing songs.
• {Never been interested in writing songs}

5) Type in “[your name] wants” in Google search:

• Mika wants to collaborate with AMY WINEHOUSE on a Jewish album.
• {Amy Winehouse? No, no, no (Rehab tune) LOL}

6) Type in “[your name] does” in Google search:

• Mika does sunshiny hyper-happy pop like no other.
• {AW SWEET!}

7) Type in “[your name] hates” Google search

• Mika hates losing and never gives up.
• {Not really true}

8) Type in “[your name] goes”

• Mika goes girly again.
• {Ang tarush!}

9) Type in “[your name] loves” in Google search

• Mika loves today.
• {No, I don’t!}

10) Type in”[your name] is” in Google search:

• Mika is a British pop singer.
• {I could be brown, I could blue, I could be violet sky! LOL}

may VOICE
‘eto raw yung mga boys sa school. voice - boys.

may BIG
kasi raw big girls na raw kami. and “big girls don’t cry.”

at syempre, meron at meron yung COMBI
katulad ni Anthony (aka Tonyang/Steroids), dahil combination of both daw siya!

&*$&@($&^%ZOMFGWTF!! ANG MAIS, I KNOW! JOELLE KASI EH!

GRABE. This week is hella busy for everyone in class but can’t you just believe how we can still be able to laugh and do crazy stuff like this?

Chyeah. We’re really busy right now since next week’s already our Second Periodical Exam and we are all doing our projects since they must be passed before the exam. AND Sports Fest is going to start on the 23rd that’s why we have to start practicing our dance steps. (Y’know, we’re the winners so we have to join the Year Level Cheer and Dance Competition)

D:

• the tote bag I borrowed from my older sister
• an old powerpuff girls pillow -OMG-
• a heart-shaped pillow
• my biology book
• curtain

2. List four best friends.

• ina
• gabrielle
• rhea
• joelle
• m.a.

3. List seven things you’ve done today.

• practiced our dance steps
• ate a cup of ice cream with gabrielle and davenn
• did my biology assignment
• bought lots of candies
• ate anthony’s food during recess time (i’m serious. NYAHAHA!!)
• kept on scratching my legs because of those annoying killer mosquitoes
• celebrated our principal’s feast day in the morning with the whole department

4. List one place you’d like to visit.

• Greece?

5. List three holidays you like.

• sem break
• halloween
• christmas

7. List one reason you and your ex broke up.

• i don’t like him
• he doesn’t like me
• do you really care?

8. List four things you like about your appearance.

• my messy hair
• my..
• my..
• UGH

9. List eight things you like about your best friend.

• reminds me of our assignment almost everyday
• doesn’t care if i open her bag
• or use her favorite pen
• thinks i’m a great friend :D
• would buy me a bottle of water after an exhausting day
• goes to our house really early every sunday
• calls me to make sure that i went home safely
• the voice 8D it sounds so cool my heart would melt

10. List two favorite colors.

• red
• blue

random questions
1. Would you care if a friend was friends with an enemy of yours?

• naaaw.

2. What was the last book you read?

• the book i borrowed from my seatmate

3. Are you looking forward to going back to school?

• chyeahhh, i hope.

4. Was this one of your favorite summers? Why?

• do you think doing nothing at home is fun?

5. Is there anything you’ve always wanted to do?

• i want to play the piano for a whole day

6. Where is the person that means most to you right now?

• mom’s in the hospital to visit my niece

7. How many best friends do you have?

• i don’t know. the whole class is effing awesome.

8. Do you have any cuts or bruises on your body right now?

• none.

9. Are you holding back doing or saying anything?

• nope.

10. What time will you go to sleep tonight?

• right after i’m done with everything. around midnight, i guess.

I just came home from my friend’s place where we practiced our dance steps for our intersection next week(?) for the whole day. Well I’m obviously tired now and my voice sounds different since I kept on yelling during the practice. YAAAAAAAY..not.

Apparently, I’m not in the mood right now to post about anything well above average. I’m wearied, I’m desperate and I still have to finish a lot of things now. School is certainly stressing me out plus I’ve realized that being absent for a week is like missing the class for a whole school year. Funny, but that is what I feel. My goal to attain that dream of getting that white card award for the whole quarter is getting impossible now and I feel like I’m starting to lose my friends. I’m starting to get literally weak.

-How the fuck- Why do I act so strangely lately? I’m supposed to be like freaking out always, dancing crazily and joking around with my classmates. But the crazy-in-a-good-way side of me seems to be missing and I can’t find it yet.

Everything has their own reasons.

And yeah, this whole thing. This real-mika-is-missing thing has a reason. It’s a reason I’ve been thinking about since..I can remember. I can’t seem to remove it from my mind that it’s starting to annoy me. I want to forget it. I need it for the better. I think I have to earn money and buy those things I badly want. YEAH! That might help me forget that reason. I mean, I downright admit that it’s becoming a happiness for me - buying the stuff I want for my closet. I want to do this. I want to forget that reason which makes me upset.

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And the reason is, MY CRUSH SEEMS TO LIKE MY FRIEND. It’s a fact. FRACK.

He kept on looking at my friend during our practice. Well, I haven’t seen him do it. My friend did. And she has finally admitted to us that she likes him. AW!! And I sounded so bad telling her, “That’s great!” I sounded so unconvincing. Please don’t tell me how bad I am to be a liar.

I know I was going to be envious (even if it hasn’t been proved yet that he likes her back) since my friend is pretty, has a great attitude and she’s smart (but well, everyone knows I’m smarter than her LOL.)

BUUUUUUUUT when a boy stares at a girl, it doesn’t just only mean that he likes her, right? I mean, I had this classmate when I was in the 2nd grade and he kept on staring at me because he wanted to kill me (LOL he was really mad at me for losing his favorite pencil). GRADE SCHOOL DAYS :D

UGH!! D: I really wanted to cry right after coming home. He’s the only guy I really like in school. He’s been my crush for a long time. And we were great friends last time. He’s really nice and his friends called him my name once. However, we don’t talk that much to each other anymore. I don’t know. We started to ignore each other all of a sudden. OHHHH I wish some time, he’d prove to us that he doesn’t like anyone (but me) LOL. I mean, I’d rather know that he’s not interested in girls than he’ll admit he likes someone other than me.

I might kill myself.

Yes, glamorous people. I finally am. I just turned 14 yesterday. I am happy, of course. Everything was perfect. My family was complete; I was feeling better; And the doctor has finally allowed me to attend my class. I need to thank God for all of these.

You know, I was sick for a whole week. Was suffering from Dengue Fever and my doctor suggested me to get rest so I was absent in class. Well, every morning, I’d see those scary things in front of me and the nurse would be like the monster and I was going to be the victim. LOL. But the monster’s bite didn’t hurt since I hugged my mom so tight.

I wasn’t feeling good. I needed to eat a lot and drink a lot of water every moment but it seemed to be like it was the hardest thing for me to do which was not supposed to be. But since we tried really hard to do everything the doctor told me, I was able to get well before my birthday without getting confined.

Thank God, really because without Him, I would be celebrating my birthday in the hospital. If you want to know, I actually celebrated my birthday the first time I suffered from this kind of illness (this is the second time) in the hospital. Mom tried to recall it. She told me I kept on crying and instead of running around with balloons and a party hat and kids playing with me, I just laid on the bed. It was my fourth birthday. And then ten years after, that dengue is back to try to kill me. But I won. We won. LOL. Mom was so great. She’s a great nurse.

Anyway, my birthday was great. My friends went to visit me in the afternoon and mom allowed me to go with them somewhere else, leaving my visitors/relatives at home. Well I suppose they were okay with that. They seemed to be enjoying the food mom cooked for my birthday — palabok, pizza, pansit, brownies and the rest I don’t know. 8D See, I told you my birthday was good. I thought it wasn’t. Really. I thought we were just going to celebrate without those.

Tomorrow’s Sunday, by the way. I really need to go to mass since I’ve never gone there for a long time yet He keeps on answering my prayers :-D